post op day 1

We had a good day today. Ella's pain is under better control with some increases to her morphine drip. She slept most of the day. We were able to get her up to the chair for about 10 minutes and being the trooper that she is she even wanted to try walking, she only took about 2 steps, but we are so proud of her for trying. Her one kidney is producing beautiful urine, yes, I'm calling urine beautiful! She is running a fever tonight. The pain is preventing her from breathing deeply and she cries when she has to cough, pray that she doesn't get pneumonia.

Today we were also able to talk more about why she had to have an operation and she seems to be doing better with the fact that we brought her here. This was a conversation we had yesterday "mommy, I told you I didn't want to come to the hospital" me- "I know hunny, I wish you didn't have to be here." Ella- " No mommy, you want me to be here and I'm frustrated with you!" As hard as that was to hear, we are grateful that we can now work through those feelings.

Greg and I were able to relax a little bit today, relieved that recovery is under way. We laughed with friends and each other and had a good talk about all we've been processing. Sometimes I get hit by a wave of "life is not normal, what are you doing smiling." But my stress is not going to improve any outcomes, so I will accept the peace I feel and rejoice in the God on whom I am leaning so heavily!